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You yell, “It’s hurt dear…. I can’t hold the pain. I’m queasy.”
But I don’t listen to u .. every second I push u to eat something.
Every second I says , be optimistic dear… u can face it easyly..
How easy? If everything you eat , make you cry out…

I just wanna u get better soon. And I don’t aware of your pain.
Damned…
What is in my mind?
Does my ego force me to do this?
Is my happiness or yours?

I’m so sorry,
I try to figure out what I did.
Maybe, I did something wrong…
It’s not the way to help you, coz u don’t need it.


Perhaps, you just need s’one to listen you.
You just need s’one to hold you.

I don't know how dying feel
Indeed, I don’t how to face when I’m dying..

I thought I was put on earth to save you
In the end, I couldn’t do it.
I realize now, it’s not the point.
The point is I have you.
And until then our relationship continue

(inspired by my sister’s keeper movie)